I never expected this day to come again, I never expected history to repeat itself again. I once told myself I will not do it any more, but it is everyone who told me to give it another try. It is also him whom I told I worry that I might not be able to cope with my studies if I had to be the chairman again like last year (which I had a difficult time that nobody knows), and he’s the one who told me not to see it like a burden. I believed it, can’t you believe I believed it? Giving my 100% efforts to do the best I can like I always do, but today you’re telling me the same words again to reflect not to see it as a burden?

So all along HE never appreciated the effort I’ve put in, all along you’ve thought I was accommodating you and doing stuffs for your sake? I’m not pointing fingers, but which chairman would be such an idiot to do so much for the class? I’ve been helping the class to complete tasks for the teachers cos’ I don’t like to trouble everyone, I’ve tried to make everyone do as little while I do the rest on my own becos’ I know everyone hates to do it. You never know, I’ve always been carrying the blame whenever the class causes trouble, and I have to tell teachers it is my fault and I’ll redo everything again. I’ve to eat in my own recess and after school time to look for HIM to get things done for everyone, which HE lied to me many times and I’m always waiting like an idiot with NO sms replies from HIM, NO returning calls, NO info abt him at all. Yes I did tell HIM before, you stop for once, then what about the next time? It’s more than my 10 fingers can count. I’ve got to ask Audrey to send relays to remind ppl to bring things, which I have to even consider sending at night so ppl don’t say they forget becos’ I send too early. But so what if I sent, how many would bring even when I go one by one to every table to collect from everyone? I can collect for up to 2-3 weeks, who would be as tolerant or stupid as that?

Can’t YOU tell I’m not treating it as a burden like I’ve once did mention about worrying it might be? Haven’t I done enough to prove to YOU and shown YOU my commitment in doing my job? YOU say when YOU’RE sick and come to teach, ＂谁来可怜我？＂Now I ask you back the same question: When I’m so busy and I had to settle so much of class admin stuff, nobody offers their help and I had to beg for help (which gets rejected), I may be sick too, 谁来可怜我？谁来感谢我？Being chairman since last year, no one actually thanked me. I don’t even hope for everyone to thank me, I just hope my effort has been of great help that you can appreciate. Even if you keep scolding students and teach so long for 3hrs, at least YOU get YOUR pay, I don’t even get paid for doing anything for the class, yet I put in all my commitment and all YOU could say is “don’t treat it as a burden”? So YOU’RE thinking I’m accommodating you all along?

I may not be your 100% good chairman, but I do put in my 100% effort being a chairman. It’s okay, I can be tolerant if you don’t see my effort, and I may have room for improvements being a chairman, but YOU can’t just insult me saying I’m accommodating you only and treating the job of a chairman as a burden.

Now tell me what, tell me what, tell me what tell me what tell me what should I do?